I recently got into a conversation, over a glass of wine, with a dear friend after Sunday dinner at her home with her kids, about life, happiness, love and relationships. She's in a sad place right now and was blind-sided by a current situation but being the strong woman that I know her to be, she is making the best of things and keeping positive about life despite what is going on. But it made me wonder if she was awake to notice the little details of what was going on around her to lead up to what is happening today. She told me that she never saw this coming.
I know that when life is good and we are in love, we tend to put blinders on and don't notice the wide view of the world and only see what is within our happy realm. We kind of get into a sleep mode, if you will. We are not fully awake to all that surrounds us so we miss the signs.
It took me back several years of when I was going through a situation with a someone I thought was special and realize in hind sight, how blinded I really was to what was real and what I made up about him in my mind. Reality has a way to wake you up to the truth about how someone is and you can never go back to seeing them in those rose-colored glasses again. Which is a good thing because I know that I put him on that pedestal but I also helped to topple him off it. I was asleep at the wheel of my life and until he pushed me away, I didn't know that. But I am glad I am awake now and can see things in the light it was meant to be seen in.
So now, several years older and hopefully wiser, I feel that for the first time, I am truly awake and can see where I am going and why. I always felt that I wouldn't get married again but as I get older, I look forward to meeting someone really special and spending my life with him. Life is a fairy tale because you realize you really do have to kiss a bunch of frogs to find your prince. One day, he will come and I have the patience to wait for him, but in the mean time, it is about kissing those frogs, having fun and staying awake to what is around me. And I am! Ribbit! LOL!
Here is a song that I found, by accident, that encompasses what I was thinking. Some times, those accidents are just serendipitous.
Until next time, stay blessed and always keep a smile inside so it shines out brightly!
